holes in walls, for the disillusioned

uck i should really get back to studying my work homework... too easily distracted... for instance i just looked over and saw a hole in the wall from the ghetto rigged wallpaper that someone rigged for this place and i took a straightened out paper clip and poked it in there to i shit you not... probe for cameras lol... i really must be a depraved person if that was the first thing on my mind seeing that haha.

Acceptance of love and animation

Misted by the laws of attraction, isn't it funny how one's self delusional thoughts lead you to the insanity called woman? is it that we find security within the chaos of the insecure or perhaps we're just intrigued by their inconstant indifference to the world around them. Our parents warned us against those four letter words, fuck, shit, damn. but what of the more painful ones like, love, and miss. what other alternative do you have other then to move on forget dismiss, other then the apparent numb feeling this world is sure to give. when your mind is so constipated that there is no fluidity within the stagnant waters and you feel so depersonalized from the world that their any cognitive thinking seems entirely outside your grasp, challenge the insanity. how we deal with the passing of days is a scratch or mortar to the glass shield we call life. we are predisposed to being crazy childish or adult, it's the small things that set us off to the numbness. molded by the inopportune her lips are always just as delicious, morning, night, no matter what time of day. I am 27 years old and when i hear the words from someone i care from i'll be just as ready, i love each and everyone around me thats what i've taken from the assistance of others i've gotten in life. I don't care if you like me, i don't care if you can stand me, but when i hear it come from your mouth i'll be ready.

On another note, i'm impressed by the quality of japanese animation that's coming out in the years past, as well as i'm sure the years to come. I was re watching Angel Heart , a japanimation about a female assassin who has the feeling as memories of the recently diseased woman kaoi via organ transplant. In any order what i'm coming to is not only are the plots and intentions of the animation becoming a bit less surreal , but the storyline and emotions behind it are doing nothing but intensifying. so while i suppose we'll get the same useless hollywood bullshit cough cough twenty who gives a fuck dresses by the makers of devil wears prada. at least it hasn't effected the "childish" cartoons that i so deem to watch and enjoy. To be able to live and breath with the characters of a show isn't just a virtue as your empathizing with every heartache every joyous reunion and death and rebirth shown. Its pretty much for those reasons why i not only enjoy animation but i consider it the works and expressions of one or more screaming artists. if that's strange then so be it, i'm weird.

sometimes pain is so deep that you need someone to stand beside you and tell you everything will be fine, it will work out, and struggle is not futile.Once you hear those words your screaming out inside, i love you and i know everything will work out just fine as long as your by my side.however once you leave me i'll be that pit of despair called reality, and no longer surreality. Isn't it amazing how someone can be so vicious so ugly, so incredibly vile yet right after they have fed you to the demons they expect all the love in the world to come from your lips. it's almost as if saying yes i know that i have been ugly but let me justify my actions by insinuating the random chaos of the world and it's those tid bits of figmentation that produce the reasoning they abide by. For isn't it fact that if the world was originally created by those random bits of matter that finally composed that first amoeba which made a more logical genetic strain. the means doesn't matter as long as the end arrives as it should be

Match.com Exposure of dating websites

I thought the following post on this website was super funny, but realistic.


"A coworker of mine who is 40 years old is lonely and decided to sign up for Match.com. She assigned me the privileged position of screening the men she was matched to. Out of a dozen or so middle-aged divorce's, every single one was a Republican, every single one required their potential date to be "fit and toned", and ~80% had an arousing fast-food physique discernible beneath their flannel shirts. The moral of this story: Appreciate the fact that you are young and sexy. Then realize how quickly your charms will fade and try not to have a panic attack. "

Elton John and " Klara and Edda belly dancing "

I was reading up on some old world news and noticed that  Sir Elton John has been caught with possession of child pornography. Apparently Elton acknowledged that he owned the artwork J "Klara and Edda Belly-Dancing" featuring to underage girls portrayed in a rather indecent manor.There are a few things that are a bit disturbing about this, that being that the artwork has been featured within new york, texas, and many places around the world. The question that comes to mind is where do you draw the line between graphic art and indecent pornographic material, especially when featuring underage girls. The second thing that is unsettling is the public questioning Elton John's integrity. What's odd about this is that Elton John isn't even sexually attracted towards women, so i don't see how this piece of artwork is even relevant as it doesn't display anything he is attracted towards. Now on the note of is it considered artwork, yes it is considered artwork no matter how graphic as artwork is defined by the creator, not the mass.

Unconstitutional Presidental Positions And An Unconstitutional Congress

It's almost time for the new election and I have been thinking about what the candidates have to either offer or what they lack. It's become my oppinon that none of them are really capable of becoming a good president.The fact is that each of them has already formulated an oppinon on where they believe they should go with the country. However the political position of the president is to be a representative of the people. Because each of the candidates and often times politicians only represent themselves, they can never be a good candidate for their job or the presidency.

If the opinion of the people flip flops then the opinion of the presidency should also not stay the same. Sense when is the job of the presidency to do what they believe is best for the common man. Should the common man no longer have the voice they believe to be had?  If this is the case why do we believe the Bill of Rights must be adhered to still.

No one man should have as much power as the presidency. We once had a great nation of checks and balances however sense perhaps the great depression the use of  presidential power to bypass congress has become a common place. The one thing that should happen is for the president and each and every other congressman to follow the issues that got them elected in the first place. People will say and do almost anything now to hold office

Musical Deginerative Industry

Well I've been thinking  about The music that main stream artist (for the most part) are publishing these days... and to be frank i'm disgusted... I'm all for an easy buck... make your millions for goodness sake... It's become a common place for someone to submit a mixup or track with someone else's voice or music behind their own. It seems more and more rare that you will get what's to be considered unique, an original song. Musicians are thriving on playing out the covers of others and seem content with being objectionable towards creating anything new by themselves. What's odd about this but perhaps all to realistic is that the music industry seems content with reselling the same songs over and over again. It's no wonder europe is considered years ahead of the US music industry. Marketeering the same songs is a commonplace now. Take you musicians like Justin Timberlake, TI or perhaps even Eminem they all use other peoples songs to feature their own.  When this practice keeps happening , how much longer will the same songs sustain us for. How much longer will music keep being created until the only thing "new" will be someone else's old song?

Music Theory and unchanging compromise

I can think back to what seems like yesterday , where i am sitting in my room, attempting to learn how to play my electric guitar, without actually learning any music theory behind it. Yet, i had so much drive and need to learn more about music composition, and more so to bear my soul down and put my mark down in the world. Here I am years later and still attempting to learn the guitar, yet assuming the responsibility of learning that all encompassing music theory. And while it seems frustrating at times, it makes me happy. With so much changing it's amusing how many things seem to stay the same. I am still content to stay in my room and strum the guitar learning nothing but enjoying what i call music played to the masses of my imagination.

- Rory Williams